Yes, this is a disjointed rambling post. Deal with it.

A few hours early to be sure, Tuesday’s prompt is on hold. Something has struck me lately as I find myself spending more time on my blogs. My own personal question is this:

Who exactly am I writing for these days?

When I started a blog long, long ago using Google I was writing for myself. It was basically a journal. Actually not even a journal but what it really started out as was a memoir for my kids. I made this wholehearted but tiresome attempt to take myself back in time and begin to chronicle my life for my kids. I mean my entire life. Every single thing I could remember as early as I could remember it. It was great fun for a while, but then I began to remember that I wasn’t very good at remembering anymore. It was taking a lot of effort to remember all the little nuances and stories and moments that would flash in and out of my head that I wanted my kids to know about.

I caught moments mostly through pictures and I’m sure that in the end,  had I continued, they would have gleaned some insight into their mom, but the whole idea became a struggle. I wanted to write about other things like my life now. Like my kids now and their lives. So Google went away and this blog was born. At first I only made it available to a few but in a short amount of time I realized that I felt more comfortable putting myself out to the world. For a long time I didn’t open the blog to close friends or acquaintances. I was worried about their opinions on some of the things I write about here.

That really is sort of odd because it’s not like a fill this blog with profanity, or pornography or radical revolutionary ideas such as plans to overthrow the government. In fact this blog is usually pretty darn tame. I also decided that if they didn’t like what I had to say then they didn’t need to read it. Again odd, but that was really a freeing realization.

Then along came college, and my rants and whining about this class or that professor and the next thing I knew The Perpetual Student was born. I try to contain my student self to that blog although the two have been known to overlap.

The point of my question way up there in bold letters is that I have become a follower of quite a number of blogs lately. A small number actually when compared to the blogs I read or simply visit that have massive amounts of followers. Some questions for those bloggers as I ponder my presence here:

1. How do you do it? Where do all those followers come from? Do you have a flashing light on your blog that says READ ME-FOLLOW ME-I AM GREAT-STOP BY AND JOIN

2. Why do you do it?  I follow a few writing blogs so that answer is pretty obvious, but just in general I wonder what your initial motivation was to become a blogger on WordPress. What happened one day when you woke up? Did you just say to yourself, “Today is the day I start a blog.” and do it?

3. When do you have time to do anything else? Some bloggers have a gazillion followers and comments posted from those same gazillion followers all the time. When do you eat, sleep and work. How can you find the hours in the day to reply?

I do realize that not every blog on WordPress encompasses a mass following and many bloggers have many reasons for being here. I have barely scratched the surface of this world, mostly because I don’t have the time nor the inclination to sit for hours looking at all of the blogs here. Does anyone do that? Or do you just find your little niche’ and stick to it?

I think all these weird thoughts are circulating in my head because they fall under the same sort of umbrella concept we ask in Creative Writing.

How do you write, why do you write and when do you have time to do anything else if you think of yourself as a serious writer? I’m learning more about the how part, have some handle on the why part but still struggle with the when part.

All of those questions bring me back to my original. Just who am I writing for in this blog and at TPS? Is it just an escape for me?  Am I tired of listening to myself talk so I felt I should subjugate the world to my thoughts? Am I writing with the hope that one day someone will tell me that this blog is the best ever? Am I wasting time. Should I just take to my bed with a good book and reserve this computer for intellectual college pursuits?

Quite possibly the only real point to this ramble tonight was that I am trying to avoid writing a Sociology paper.

Perhaps I should sign off now and wait for an epiphany to happen that will answer all these questions.




6 thoughts on “Yes, this is a disjointed rambling post. Deal with it.”

    1. I know that you do but you have to as you are my child and you need to be warned as to how your own mind will work as you age. This is you in 25 years my dear. Scary isn’t it 🙂


  1. Good question! I think there are three reasons why I like writing on WordPress. I’ve always enjoyed writing but I can never seem to keep my mind on anything for too long so the blog allows me to write little pieces without getting too bogged down.

    (I’ve got two full-length romance novels that I’ve been writing. They’re almost finished but I just can’t seem to stick with it long enough to wrap them up. I have also written an in-depth history of our family including biographies of grandparents, parents and my autobiography, which I hope to pass on to my youngest daughter who I think will be our next family historian.)

    I can also make use of my pictures in this format. I spend quite a bit of time on photography so I’d like to think that the results are not a total waste of time.

    But I think the biggest reason is that it allows me to interact with nice people such as yourself who actually care enough to hear what I have to say. I find it very difficult to converse with people and in the 40 years that I’ve been in the US I haven’t made any real friends so this is a wonderful way to get to meet interesting folks who like to share their experiences. So thank you for following my blog and allowing me to follow yours! (See, you are not the only one who rambles!)


    1. You may ramble away as much as you like!
      You make some excellent points, especially regarding time constraints which I agree are a big reason I write what I write here rather than trying to turn any one of these posts into something more. I just don’t have time right now, nor any resolve to believe that should I write more it would not get dreary, flat or have any audience at all. Hmmm, as trophos mentioned in her reply I may have spend some time rambling on this subject more. I feel quite like I am in therapy 🙂


    1. I feel rather honored actually. I have never been told that I derailed anyone’s anything before! As the epiphany I was waiting for has not arrived yet, perhaps I will continue to muse over this although that Sociology paper is not going to write itself.


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