Apparently I’m not

The title of this blog would seem to imply that as I am (fill in: alive, breathing, happy, sad, conscious, thinking, sentient…whatever comes to mind) then I therefore will write.

It would seem however that as this blog has been sorely neglected, as well as my presence over at The Perpetual Student is virtually MIA, I certainly am not.

I can’t help but wonder if my lack of verbiage stems from the amount of writing I have to do for class. I do know that in the past I have gone through dry spells in my writing.

Quite frankly I just have nothing worthwhile to say. How many times can I comment on school or tell you THAT IT’S ALMOST OVER.

How many mundane stories can I share…the ones that don’t even interest me even though they occur and define how and why I am.

I feel devoid of any form or relevance lately. Not working at a real job is taking its toll. Adding to that is the end of my student status in just over 1 month. Apparently those were the two things that defined me over the last few years. One is gone and the other isn’t far behind. Who and what will I be then?

I am alive, and breathing, and sentient at the moment. I just am not here.

The horizon looms with the need to reinvent and restructure.  Any grand ideas?

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4 thoughts on “Apparently I’m not”

  1. When I first started my blog it was all about the writing. But I find that as I get older it becomes more difficult to find the right words, which is why I changed over to sharing my attempts at photography. I know what you mean about finding a hobby. My house is filled with things that I’ve started and never finished. It sounds like you will be starting a new phase of your life soon when you finish your course at school and a new beginning is always something to look forward to. Just don’t give up on the blog. It’s always good to hear from you.

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    1. Thanks Sue! That’s nice to hear. The blog will stay around and it would be great to devote more time to it. I just don’t want it to be a boring recap of my boring future days so maybe some re-tooling and such. Keep those photos of yours coming-your nature images always brighten my day!

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  2. [This is probably exactly THE OPPOSITE of what you want to hear, sorry.] You really will be running into a major lack of externally imposed structure soon! That sounds scary. I look forward to seeing how you direct your energy then (and I sympathize for the scary part *shudder*).
    As for writing dry-spells, I blame it on writing-heavy classes, as you say, but also this interminable winter. It’s drained me of everything too. And we don’t even have mudslides out here.
    Keep breathing 😉

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    1. I know right….you should see me ineffectually attempting to find a new “hobby” to occupy my time with little success. No matter how much I try I cannot justify grad school-it literally makes no sense for so many reasons and so I flounder aimlessly waiting for a sign…

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